NAT KANG COLE

ok u know what?
i did study.
i mean maybe i didnt study up to my expectations
but i did.
i made mindmaps and studied everything that i could.
but in the end..
as u can see on friday.. i told u i didnt know what i didnt know
which was right
and i attributed that to laziness.
but i retract that back..
as i look back in introspect.. i realise i wasnt lazy at all
not one slight teeny weeny bit
i havent watched tv for the longest time
read any mags
talked on the phone
stepped out of the house.
and yet.
i made sacrifices.
tonnes of them
i dont see any results
i guess when i attributed my ignorance to laziness i was in denial
i didnt wanna admit that im stupid
but now
i surrender
point proven
i am dumb
so shoot me.

for this common test.
i give up
i do not see the point in continuing.
i rush into the embrace of triple fs
of a sealed fate.
of an acknowledgement of existence
3 fs. define
me.