NAT KANG COLE

i had a dream.
a bad one.
mr kwek was scolding me for being an incompetent fool
he made me cry
and strangely
i was tearing when i woke up.

so much for not giving a fuck.

sometimes i wonder if im even made out for this education system
granted that math was a kinda neglected after the prelims.
i must admit the fact that im a consistent worker.
doing every fucking tutorial.
studying for every fucking subject.

my mom thinks i study way too hard
comparatively to my sister who got fucking ABC for the a levels.

im not asking much now
just a
pass in math ( im being hopeful)
and an A or B for lit and econs

if i fuck up lit or econs
ill go knock my bloodyhell useless head against the wall.

i didnt come so far just to go down like this.

my life will not be dictated by that fucking piece of certificate.

cool if i can get into uni

if not. maybe its just a harsh way of telling me ill make it somewhere else

however bleak the prospect.