NAT KANG COLE

i know i had a serious change in attitude in the last month before the A's
hahahaha i became less of a mugger and worrier and more of a heck care-er
but those who didnt know that think that im a bloody slacker because of my lack of focus sometimes....

oh well...

the feeling just sucks

maybe i should have just been more serious
but i guess being like a bloody heck car-er has its benefits too
for one... i dont really care how my results come out anymore...
why? cause i have been a relatively consistent student and i have tried my best.
with the occassional slip ups..
so yes i feel that my conscience is clear...
do u think so??
i mean with the exception of math in the month after prelims..( now that was fucked up)

so yea... life shouldnt be dictated by a bloody cert
on another note its nice to know that rjc and hcjc students cried while doing the econs paper..
now thats good news i guess...
im being evil
but i dont care..
its either them or me..
and i think the one going down the drain with me...

recently i've been feeling not in the best of moods..
because i look like a pig.
because im gonna fail my A'S
because my prep work for A'S werent justified
because some people just have it all and some people just dont

yesterday i was talking to hwee and here's what we thought of

1.hwee shall go marry a dying old rich man
2.after that old man dies i shall live in with hwee
3.we shall go for high tea everyday then straight to a slimming centre
4.we shall go for spas everyday
5.have the time of our lives... expenses paid for by the man in the coffin

yes its sinister i know
but we had fun daydreaming abt it
so oh well
the little indulgences that we're entitled tooo

yea ans since we have yet to make our wishes for the year
here is what we wished for..

me
1:be richer
2:be smarter
3.be slimmer
4.be prettier

and above all happier

hwee
1.be richer
2.be taller

and above all happier..

hwee is already smart pretty and slim already you see...

so there...

oh welll.. can i say im contented with life now?? hmmm i really dont know ... yes and no..

anyway....
i feel so fucking depressed because i put on 10 kgs while studying for the A'S
EVERYWHERE IS FATTER NOW...
IS SO FUCKING DEPRESSING LOOKING INTO THE MIRROR
AND IT DOESNT HELP THAT AFTER A'S IS COMING AND I HAVE TO GO OUT...
CAUSE NONE OF MY CLOTHES FIT
THEREFORE...
AFTER PC
IM GOING TO GO RUNNING EVERYDAY...
IM ALSO GOING TO EAT LESSS.
BECUSE I HAVE NO REASON TOOO


SIGH IM FUCKING SAD.