Sunday, March 05, 2006
guess what? after 3 days of emotional wreckage.. i can hereby declare that im fine! ahahahah.. why? cause yest there was no sign of bratty emotional angst from me :) hee hee heee
yes im a brat, and im childish, and im really hard to deal with sometimes..
but i know myself the best. give me some time to grief and express my emotions.. and ill be ok.. the pessimist in me has to come out before the optimist in me can appear... and yes i have declared war against in uni and ill FIGHT it till my death...
life just seems so much better when u feel contented with what u have gotten or earned for that matter. life is unfair, deal with it :) my favourite line and yes thats exactly what im gonna do :) although some of u may think that ihavent quite lived up to my personal statement.. i think i have.. dealing with things does not deny u the right to experss emotions or grouse over things.. but the most important thing is that u dont let it hold u down forever and ever .. 3 days is a reasonable time i would say :) some people let things like that hold them down perpetually and they become bitter and affect people arnd them too.. im not gonna.
to all those who had to hear me bitching and complaining abt my results.. esp fee and siyan... thank you ! thank you for understanding where i was coming from and allowing me to bitch like mad... thank u for your kind understanding and patience... thank you for not getting pissed with me and understanding that im not trying to be insensitive :0 some things just has to be screamed and bitched in order to facilitate release and closure. I am truly blessed and lucky in life to have friends like you guys ( this applies to all)
now.. im quite excited about going to university. ive seen the smu coursework for social science and it is so interesting! its broadbased and as siyan said " so (me)".. but getting a place in that uni would be tough especially since my results and sats wouldnt add to my credentials as much as i would like them too.. but who cares.. i'll just be thick skineed and shameless and apply all the same.. the downside is that i dont really want to be a branded kid or have to spend extra effort compromising who i really am to fit in.. and yea it sucks that they dont quite have extra ciricular activities.. its less homely than nus i would suppose...
ooh.. and ive downloaded the modules for nus too ( sociology) that is.. its interesting and i cant wait to do stuff like that.. thte only downside is ill probably get too 'claustrophobic' and overwhelmed by just doing sociology sociology balh blah blah.. and as ive said.. smu offers a more broad based study area which not only addresses various areas academically but also social and communication skills otherwise obtained via work experiences only.
i have my heart bent on taking sociology but the only thing that is stopping me now is my inability to express what i want to say in words and on paper. and this is a super important factor if i wish to do well in sociology. i cant write essays to save my life... my gp grade says it all man.
sigh life is good when you're happy and contented. and somehow lady luck has decided to start shinning on me again this year.. 1. i was given the opportunity to go to usa. 2. i might be going to europe. 3. for all the friends i have 4. for making sure i didnt screw up that badly for A's... mucaks.. life is good and im happy and im gonna be zany for the next two days or sooo...
oooooh .... I LOVE ALL OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!
love,
me
yes im a brat, and im childish, and im really hard to deal with sometimes..
but i know myself the best. give me some time to grief and express my emotions.. and ill be ok.. the pessimist in me has to come out before the optimist in me can appear... and yes i have declared war against in uni and ill FIGHT it till my death...
life just seems so much better when u feel contented with what u have gotten or earned for that matter. life is unfair, deal with it :) my favourite line and yes thats exactly what im gonna do :) although some of u may think that ihavent quite lived up to my personal statement.. i think i have.. dealing with things does not deny u the right to experss emotions or grouse over things.. but the most important thing is that u dont let it hold u down forever and ever .. 3 days is a reasonable time i would say :) some people let things like that hold them down perpetually and they become bitter and affect people arnd them too.. im not gonna.
to all those who had to hear me bitching and complaining abt my results.. esp fee and siyan... thank you ! thank you for understanding where i was coming from and allowing me to bitch like mad... thank u for your kind understanding and patience... thank you for not getting pissed with me and understanding that im not trying to be insensitive :0 some things just has to be screamed and bitched in order to facilitate release and closure. I am truly blessed and lucky in life to have friends like you guys ( this applies to all)
now.. im quite excited about going to university. ive seen the smu coursework for social science and it is so interesting! its broadbased and as siyan said " so (me)".. but getting a place in that uni would be tough especially since my results and sats wouldnt add to my credentials as much as i would like them too.. but who cares.. i'll just be thick skineed and shameless and apply all the same.. the downside is that i dont really want to be a branded kid or have to spend extra effort compromising who i really am to fit in.. and yea it sucks that they dont quite have extra ciricular activities.. its less homely than nus i would suppose...
ooh.. and ive downloaded the modules for nus too ( sociology) that is.. its interesting and i cant wait to do stuff like that.. thte only downside is ill probably get too 'claustrophobic' and overwhelmed by just doing sociology sociology balh blah blah.. and as ive said.. smu offers a more broad based study area which not only addresses various areas academically but also social and communication skills otherwise obtained via work experiences only.
i have my heart bent on taking sociology but the only thing that is stopping me now is my inability to express what i want to say in words and on paper. and this is a super important factor if i wish to do well in sociology. i cant write essays to save my life... my gp grade says it all man.
sigh life is good when you're happy and contented. and somehow lady luck has decided to start shinning on me again this year.. 1. i was given the opportunity to go to usa. 2. i might be going to europe. 3. for all the friends i have 4. for making sure i didnt screw up that badly for A's... mucaks.. life is good and im happy and im gonna be zany for the next two days or sooo...
oooooh .... I LOVE ALL OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!
love,
me
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