NAT KANG COLE

im sorry for being such a bitch/bastardess/insenstive moron etc etc etc this afternoon.

im sorry for the scream the wailing the bawling and all...

i was angry and agitated... and looking back i feel that i was being a complete idiot ... and i feel damn bad...

the most impt thing is that i got a place in a uni right?

im sorry.. i was just so hoping for that A in econs.. and probably a better gp grade like c5 or sth..

i mean ive never gotten an A ever in my life. im a person whose track record either shows mediocracy or failure.. and i was just so hoping that this time it would be different...

i admit i was too consumed by the grades just now. i felt that perhaps based on blah blha blah and blah blha blah.. i should have done better.. but now i know that i was being such a child. humans are just a weird lot lah.. its never enough...

my greatest enemy is myself. thruout this jc course.. i must say that i have won half the battles fought on the battlefeild.. eventually i still (perhaps) losst. but this time i left with lesser casualties and i guess i should be glad... one day i will regin.

i think i have been focussing too much on the negative today... i must admit that my math grade was a blessing. i bet u they moderated...

ok im kinda rambling now cause my eyeballs are sore from all the crying

ill just go now.. ill continue tmr..