Monday, April 24, 2006
when they leave... ill be sad lonely and depressed...
pathetic as it sounds... most of my social life revolves around them..
i will definitely experience a sense of void within myself...
just thinking about it now gives my tummy a weird feel....
sigh....
no more late night chatters...
no more 'bo liow' phone calls where all we do is listen to each other breathe...
no more paranoia attacks...
no more patented retardedness ( as seen from previous blog entries)
life will just be different..
no more ' suka suka' ill be at your house in half an hour..
no more stay overs.. no more satc... no more will and grace...
no more bull shit exciting korean soap operas of her life...
no more spontaneous meetings for supper...
no more ganging up against ivan..
no more back support against evil people like gordon kenneth and ivan....
no more stammering...
no more anti climax laughter...
no more no more no more no more...
sighhh... ill be lonely and depressed... ill revert back to the autistic kid i once was....
university life... new environment... no fixed classes... no fixed friends...
school --> home --> school
back at home i would have to face a tyrannical sister and a menopausing mother who would most probably be finding fault with me since i'd most probably be at home alot...
i might go crazy... enter a state of emotional and mental imbalance.. possibly even get hung in the gallows for attempted murder against my family members...
this sucks...
preparation for a life of lonliness and sollitude?
here i am wasting my youth away... i hate my life... i hate my self ... i hate me .
no let me change that..
i detest myself.
ok im off to europe tmr. havent packed. not excited. bye. cya.
pathetic as it sounds... most of my social life revolves around them..
i will definitely experience a sense of void within myself...
just thinking about it now gives my tummy a weird feel....
sigh....
no more late night chatters...
no more 'bo liow' phone calls where all we do is listen to each other breathe...
no more paranoia attacks...
no more patented retardedness ( as seen from previous blog entries)
life will just be different..
no more ' suka suka' ill be at your house in half an hour..
no more stay overs.. no more satc... no more will and grace...
no more bull shit exciting korean soap operas of her life...
no more spontaneous meetings for supper...
no more ganging up against ivan..
no more back support against evil people like gordon kenneth and ivan....
no more stammering...
no more anti climax laughter...
no more no more no more no more...
sighhh... ill be lonely and depressed... ill revert back to the autistic kid i once was....
university life... new environment... no fixed classes... no fixed friends...
school --> home --> school
back at home i would have to face a tyrannical sister and a menopausing mother who would most probably be finding fault with me since i'd most probably be at home alot...
i might go crazy... enter a state of emotional and mental imbalance.. possibly even get hung in the gallows for attempted murder against my family members...
this sucks...
preparation for a life of lonliness and sollitude?
here i am wasting my youth away... i hate my life... i hate my self ... i hate me .
no let me change that..
i detest myself.
ok im off to europe tmr. havent packed. not excited. bye. cya.
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