Friday, May 19, 2006
my mother hopes that if i can get a place in nie i will go for it...
it has always one of her ideas as well as my relatives that i should do teaching...
they think im suitable for it...but i dont see it that way..
teaching has always been a career option for me because i have been blessed to have encountered extremely inspiring teachers as a student...it was all along an aspiration but then somehow the course of direction has changed for me...
although nie does offer a good deal.. no need to pay for university fees and an allowance of over 1 k a month while u study.. u are bonded for 8 years.. which means when im no longer bonded ill be 27 years old and ill be really old then...
furthur more im now rather interested in public relations or like human resource or like perhaps i would even like to be an events organiser which is under public relations.. and of course im interested to be a teacher as well..
when im 27 years old and decide to pursue a totally new degree id probably be 30 when im done and ill be old and inexperienced which will totally disadvantage me at getting a job...
and besides instead of being such a cautious person for the rest of the life.. there is sth inside me that wants to be bolder.. to dare to take risks . a spontaneous person who dares to defy convention...
if i want to get bankrupt sued or get into serious trouble or become a late blooming delinquent .. i want that to happen before 30.. before 30 i will allow myself failures... after 30 its time for me to succeed.... no allowance for failure .. i will only myself to succeed then.. ( i know what u guys are thinking.. esp my sec school friends... ive changed ) yes i guess im sick and tired of being a loser. nothing i do ever seems enough...
i mean even then by 30 if i dont succeed...i can always go get married and have kids or sth like that... yea im idealistic so shoot me...
but in any case... i dont want to live my life without trying.. without failing... i want to try and i dont mind failing cause i know im a fighter and i can take failure even though i will complain abt it... but im not gonna let one failure stop me from trying again.i dont want to go through life regretting that i havent done this or that or that im too old to do whatever whatever....
but now no matter what i say it doesnt count... so i just have to patiently wait until the end of may to see if i get accepted...
haha what a coincidence.. shiqi was at the moe interviewing centre today and she was right after me! hahaha we had a chat at coffee bean after that...
a message i recieved either in reality or in my dreams * im not sure cause i was jet lagged and seemed to have deleted the message has really dashed like much of my hope abt getting into a university.. but im not letting up without a fight.. im gonna appeal appeal and appeal... my grades arent that lousy.
the natalie in future will be one who is fiercely independent and capable of success as well as protecting that success ... and admist that alll one that also realises that success isnt the only thing in life.. a person who will be able to emphatise and appreciate others for who they really are and in her means make the world a better place...
this is the new me and im going to remember that...
it has always one of her ideas as well as my relatives that i should do teaching...
they think im suitable for it...but i dont see it that way..
teaching has always been a career option for me because i have been blessed to have encountered extremely inspiring teachers as a student...it was all along an aspiration but then somehow the course of direction has changed for me...
although nie does offer a good deal.. no need to pay for university fees and an allowance of over 1 k a month while u study.. u are bonded for 8 years.. which means when im no longer bonded ill be 27 years old and ill be really old then...
furthur more im now rather interested in public relations or like human resource or like perhaps i would even like to be an events organiser which is under public relations.. and of course im interested to be a teacher as well..
when im 27 years old and decide to pursue a totally new degree id probably be 30 when im done and ill be old and inexperienced which will totally disadvantage me at getting a job...
and besides instead of being such a cautious person for the rest of the life.. there is sth inside me that wants to be bolder.. to dare to take risks . a spontaneous person who dares to defy convention...
if i want to get bankrupt sued or get into serious trouble or become a late blooming delinquent .. i want that to happen before 30.. before 30 i will allow myself failures... after 30 its time for me to succeed.... no allowance for failure .. i will only myself to succeed then.. ( i know what u guys are thinking.. esp my sec school friends... ive changed ) yes i guess im sick and tired of being a loser. nothing i do ever seems enough...
i mean even then by 30 if i dont succeed...i can always go get married and have kids or sth like that... yea im idealistic so shoot me...
but in any case... i dont want to live my life without trying.. without failing... i want to try and i dont mind failing cause i know im a fighter and i can take failure even though i will complain abt it... but im not gonna let one failure stop me from trying again.i dont want to go through life regretting that i havent done this or that or that im too old to do whatever whatever....
but now no matter what i say it doesnt count... so i just have to patiently wait until the end of may to see if i get accepted...
haha what a coincidence.. shiqi was at the moe interviewing centre today and she was right after me! hahaha we had a chat at coffee bean after that...
a message i recieved either in reality or in my dreams * im not sure cause i was jet lagged and seemed to have deleted the message has really dashed like much of my hope abt getting into a university.. but im not letting up without a fight.. im gonna appeal appeal and appeal... my grades arent that lousy.
the natalie in future will be one who is fiercely independent and capable of success as well as protecting that success ... and admist that alll one that also realises that success isnt the only thing in life.. a person who will be able to emphatise and appreciate others for who they really are and in her means make the world a better place...
this is the new me and im going to remember that...
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