Saturday, May 10, 2008
i cant believe the semester is still haunting me after its over.
after my last paper i have been having dreams with regards to the exams.
On the first two nights i dreamt that i overslept for the paper and studied for the wrong damn paper. Obviously, i woke up. And sheepishly realised that i was being an idiot cause my exams are over and went back to sleep.
Last night i dreamt that i was doing some sociology of indian family nonsense. And during my paper, they returned the micro paper which i failed miserably. i was so upset how i could have spent so much time know how to do most of it and yet screw up so badly cause of the format i went through the paper over and over again. In the end i didnt have time to finish my sociology of indian paper. Left 50% blank.
Finished my paper on monday night. Went for drinks at four seasons monday night with angelina bernice and elaine. Stupid elaine made me drink so much. Went out on Tuesday for harold and kumar with miss elaine cause she had free tickets. Spent the whole of wednesday and thursday continuing my search for internships to no avial :( went for theline buffet on thursday night. It was my cousins birthday. Seriously for 100 bucks per head they sure had damn alot of good food. But it was too much for me to stomach. Spent today feeling remorse abt yesterdays binge and went over to elaines house for popiah. Staying up tonight to finish my 3 weeks of german cause i skipped lessons for 3 weeks and have tonnes of hw to do.
and i offically got bored on wedensday.
i dunno why but i cant not have anything to do. i feel useless. and worried and anxious for my future which is increasingly looking to become set for failure.
then again enough of my emotional and mental back lash. you guys dont need this crap.
i just hope to feel free again.
free when i know everything is in order.
im so gonna fail this semester.
life sucks
after my last paper i have been having dreams with regards to the exams.
On the first two nights i dreamt that i overslept for the paper and studied for the wrong damn paper. Obviously, i woke up. And sheepishly realised that i was being an idiot cause my exams are over and went back to sleep.
Last night i dreamt that i was doing some sociology of indian family nonsense. And during my paper, they returned the micro paper which i failed miserably. i was so upset how i could have spent so much time know how to do most of it and yet screw up so badly cause of the format i went through the paper over and over again. In the end i didnt have time to finish my sociology of indian paper. Left 50% blank.
Finished my paper on monday night. Went for drinks at four seasons monday night with angelina bernice and elaine. Stupid elaine made me drink so much. Went out on Tuesday for harold and kumar with miss elaine cause she had free tickets. Spent the whole of wednesday and thursday continuing my search for internships to no avial :( went for theline buffet on thursday night. It was my cousins birthday. Seriously for 100 bucks per head they sure had damn alot of good food. But it was too much for me to stomach. Spent today feeling remorse abt yesterdays binge and went over to elaines house for popiah. Staying up tonight to finish my 3 weeks of german cause i skipped lessons for 3 weeks and have tonnes of hw to do.
and i offically got bored on wedensday.
i dunno why but i cant not have anything to do. i feel useless. and worried and anxious for my future which is increasingly looking to become set for failure.
then again enough of my emotional and mental back lash. you guys dont need this crap.
i just hope to feel free again.
free when i know everything is in order.
im so gonna fail this semester.
life sucks
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